Vibes

Have you ever met a person that just makes you crazy and not yourself? That gives off negative vibes that seem to find some way to seep into you? I have at least one person like this in my life and it makes me crazy to be around them or to know that Matt is around them without me. I am so not a jealous person, I am very secure in my relationship with Matt, as well as in myself. Hey!! I'm a pretty good catch! hahaha.....I hate jealousy, I think it's an UGLY, ugly thing.. It makes people act ridiculous and do horrible things and it definately will push the object of your affection away, if it is a constant in your life. I've had my bouts with jealousy, and to be honest it is no fun being jealous. It's a lot more fun to embrace life and people. You should be happy for the people you are "jealous of" because there is a reason you are jealous of them. Doing this will make you feel better about yourself and maybe even motivate and inspire you to become a better person....I just really can't believe the power of a person's "aura", ya know? Because some people can make you feel the opposite, if they are super positive and a genuinely wonderful person, those vibes seep into you and you start to feel GREAT about yourself. I have a few people like that in my life as well, who make me feel like a BEAUTIFUL person. LOVE those people! They know who they are... I think....

Anyways on another note...There has been a lot of death surrounding my life. A dear friend of my fiance's died in a car crash over the weekend. It's someone that Matt was very close with before I ever was in the picture,but whenever we ran into him I could tell they had a bond. Matt's face would instantly light up and he would be soo happy to see him. I, myself never knew him well, but knew he was dear to Matt and have shared a few good times with him. He was definately a character that lit up the lives of all of his friends and it's sad to see people like that go. But I guess, "Only the good die young". He is in a better place now and will always be remembered by his many friends. What makes me upset the most is when parents have to bury their children. It's something that should NEVER happen, and it happens all too often. I believe everything happens for a reason though, it's not always clear, but I'm sure this serves a purpose somewhere in the universe.

It's funny how death brings people together... It's sad that sometimes it takes a death to unite people, but at the same time it is somewhat beautiful. I'm sure the people who die enjoy looking down and seeing people reunited. It makes people realize that they should cherish the people in their lives, because you never know when the last time you see someone will be, when goodbye is really goodbye, and not see ya next week! You never think something like that will happen to you, that someone so close to you will be gone, but you really never know! This is why people should NOT be jealous, or argue over petty things, everyone should cherish life and the people they love because you never know when your number will be called.

How depressing.....This fits my mood today though. I feel like I was very spiritual today, a little different than my normal blogs.

P.S. We moved into the house this weekend and life is good just the events surrounding us right now are not. Living with Matt is delightful. I'm sure I will have time to write about that soon, but for now TA TA!