SlaaaCKIN

I am feeling very BLAH today...I've definately fell off my horse and become a bit unorganized and un-motivated. This week I have started to try to get BACK ON... It's bad when you overdraft your checking account, forget to pay bills, and everything is just a mess...I've been Slacking!!!





I feel so overwhelmed with life right now... and I probably shouldnt be blogging, but I dont know what else to do....I need some kind of therapy right now. I have this constant feeling of anxiety today and I don't know why. I just feel like there is soo much to do in my life right now and soo much I WANT to do -it's just soo overwhelming, it makes me want to cry. If this post comes out a bit choppy, it's because I am trying to be productive at work as I write this...I'm hoping a little productivity will help me feel better.



I have such a problem staying focused on one thing.... My mind is all over the place and I think that really hurts my productivity. I am too easily distracted and just want to explore EVERYTHING. I can't stay focused on one thing long enough to master it. I think if I spent more time on my "hobbies" I would find something that I could stay focused on... When I am painting, cooking, writing, or even researching music - I tend to feel at ease and can stay focused.



I also just have a lot going on right now..First house, first time being on my own... I work in the city and have long days away from my abode. I need to get back on my list making, calendar keeping, one thing at a time regimine. It was working so well for me at the beginning of the year. Blogging more often again may help too.



I also met with a few random girls this weekend to brainstorm some ideas for businesses and just taking time to express our creativity. I am very enthusiastic about it, and hope something comes out of it. I think it really could. Everyone that was there had something different to bring to the table and I think starting a business with a group like that could really work, because then each person can focus on different aspects. We also plan to like go out and do things together, and just get together once a month and brainstorm and create art and expand each others minds....