Feeling Good

BLOG.....I have been putting off blogging today, and I did not blog all weekend, even though I had a few urges to but just never did, this will probably be a NORMAL thing for me though. I try to not spend too much time on the computer on the weekends, since I spend most of my weekdays on it at work. I don't really know what I feel like blogging about today Im having BLOGGING BLOCK!!! hahah....

Well I feel good today, which is unusual for a Monday... I woke up and had some trouble getting out of bed, but not because I was tired which is the usual reason, but because my dog was being a BIG Cuddle Bunny... She was actually a Cuddle Bunny all night, I woke up in the middle of the night and she was like ON TOP of me, a 60lb Boxer, hehehe soo cute with her mushy face next to mine, but once I woke up I could feel her weight on me and had to move her after a while. It's soo funny how pets can make you feel SOOO loved and you can love them back sooooo much..... So yes I woke up feeling energized, which is happening more and more lately and I think it may be due to this cleanse I am doing because that is SUPPOSED to be one of the effects of it...I also was looking at my tum in the mirror like I often do and it appeared to me that some of my love handles that are in the area where my waist SHOULD be, creating this extra ugly curve that shouldnt be there, are starting to fade away this also could be due to the cleanse and hopefully also due to my intense workouts that I have been having as of lately. I was productive at work today, even though I am blogging right now, but the day is almost over and I finished up a big project I was working on. The weather was seasonably warm this weekend and Im already feeling the Spring Fever, but I KNOW it's too early for that. The clocks moved forward and i thought that would cause me to be tired today but I am glad it didnt. I did spend a good part of yesterday looking at the ONLY clock in my house with the WRONG time (the one on my nightstand LOL) soo I was a little thrown off when it was an hour later than I thought it was..... I tried to get myself into bed earlier than normal even though I do not really understand how switching the clocks REALLY makes you feel tired or not tired, because if you go to bed at 10 and wake up at 6 its STILL 8 hours sleep! and Im sure most people sleep in on the weekend, especially the day after the clocks are turned forward and I just dont understand, but I KNOW I have felt the effects before... It just HURTS to think about it....

I've been trying to have a healthier lifestyle, less drinking, and if I do drink its not in excess, more exercising, doing a cleanse, drinking more water, TRYING to eat healthy.... I mean I can eat HEALTHY... I really don't think my eating habits are really unhealthy.... I am always watching, but its soo hard for me to DIET. I lack willpower in that department. I LOVE to eat, and if you put delicious food in my reach I am going to GO FOR IT... I think my biggest challenge is at work. We get food catered in a lot for meetings and when there are extra sandwiches and cookies, and brownies, and sushi, and chips, and whatever else there may be I am going to want to eat it. I try really hard not to, but it is a big challenge to me. I order lunch here everyday and most of the time I am good at ordering something somewhat healthy and I have been working on become better and better at it, because the scale tells me I am not losing much weight, even though I have been feeling a hell of a lot better and it's shitty... sometimes I feel like it is soo much easier for others to lose than it is for me... I really think my metabolism sucks! but I am trying to be patient and just hope that the weight will just start to shed out of nowhere... I also am working on the dieting thing and trying to eat MORE salads and JUST salads nothing else... I hope it starts to work and the scale shows me results. On Saturday after I weighed myself it made me feel like crap though... I felt HEAVY and self conscious, which is BAD but possibly good. I feel like if I feel that way then I may be more likely to watch what I eat and say NO to bad things put into my reach. I should maybe weight myself more often. I usually stay away from the scale, because it's not really my friend LOL. I should make peace with the scale and look at it as an aid to me getting into the shape I want to be in. This day is really flying and the stock market is going to close in 15 minutes.

It was soo dark on the way to work this morning, and for a few weeks before the time change it was becoming soo bright in the mornings. i must say that the dark in the morning is a bit more comforting to me, waking up and walking out and getting on the train and being lighter when I get home from work is just a GREAT feeling. I love coming home after work on a nice day and going for a walk with my Penny Poopy Pants (thats my dog's nickname hahaha)..... She has a few though... amongst those are Ugly, Peepee pants, Poops, Momma, Caca..... the list could probably go on....hahaha... these names are all out of love, so don't go calling the humane society on me. I LOVE my dog to death and I am just a GOOF. Unfortunately, I am forced to discontinue this entry because I must do some end of day stuff at work.

Blog ya later! (I am a dork)