I am so distracted today.... I can't seem to stay focused on the things I should be focusing on. I am tired, and unmotivated, and yearning for a nap. February is flying by, and I need to keep on track with trying to come here to post twice a month. It's been a while since I have just rambled to you, and I am guessing some of you might miss that side of me. I have been feeling a bit down lately, and although in the past feeling that way sparked my inspiration to write -- I have just been kind of stuck in a rut. And, it's not everyday I feel this way, but it's just been on and off these past few months. I also drank wine with friends last night, and stayed up too late... So lack of sleep is kicking in and making me feel like a bit of a zombie. Gosh, I am getting old... I never really feel like an adult, even with a child, I still feel like that same girl I was in my twenties, or at least that's how I want to see myself. I am definitely different, and have been through so much since then.. It's crazy to reflect upon the maturity that occurs in yourself throughout a decade.
I have been doing a lot of cleaning, organizing, rearranging, and purging this year. I recently came across this folder in my house that I had labeled, "Christina's Creative Flow"(HAHAHAH), it contains mostly stories and poems that I had written in middle school and highschool. It was so interesting to look back on these things and my perspective on life, and although I was much younger and spunkier, I still was surprised at how much wisdom I actually had at that age. I was writing about friendships vanishing and greed in the world, and of course LOVE. Goodness, at a young age, I really fell in love with someone, and it consumed me. Still, to this day, I think of it as real love... I know sometimes when we are younger we think we love someone, but then you look back and think NO, that was not love at all... but this was magical, there was just this connection I felt from the moment I laid my eyes on this person. I would like to think it was mutual -- we did continue a relationship for years upon years, not always romantic, but we stayed in touch and would talk to each other for hours very frequently. It was Bella and Edward type shit.... except we were never really sexual, and of course he didn't sparkle in the light. For me, Love has never been about your physical appearance. I have always been more of a personality person. I can honestly say that sometimes someone being super attractive is a bit of a turnoff to me...Not totally, but if you are super good-looking it might make it harder for me to be attracted to you -you would have to work harder to make your personality shine through...
But anyways, here I am coming back to finish this post on a Monday morning. I am feeling refreshed from the weekend, and the weather took a turn towards spring this weekend. Oh I love it! I got to take Zoey to the park and the beach.. fresh air, sunshine and salty air make me a happy woman. My muscles are also a little sore this morning from getting in some good workouts over the weekend, and I also found out that I still have hot yoga classes available to me that I bought years ago at my favorite studio... so I am feeling uppity! It's probably mostly the weather making me feel this much better than last week. Last week it was rainy, and gloomy all week and that just really takes a toll on me. I don't think I could ever live in London or Seattle, or anywhere that has full on clouds and rain for long periods of time. I really feel like I would turn into a puddle on the ground... How do people do it? I guess it takes a certain type. My mood is way too affected by the weather.. Do you feel that way too?
I am so happy to feel like a page has turned today.. sometimes Mondays are the worst, but today I am digging you Monday! Happy Monday to any of you out there reading this! xox
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| She loves it as much as I do! |
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| Hanging with her Nonna |
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| Baby BFFs |
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