August 30th, 2016

Zoey's 2nd birthday

Zoey's birthday was kind of  simply great.  From the moment she woke up - we - my husband, my dog, and I- went in with a comforter filled with balloons, singing to her.  The night prior, I decorated the living room and dining area - she walked around, and noticed each, and every little detail with oohs, and ahhs, and wows, and pretties, and favorites.  It made my heart swell. 

Although we didn't have a big party for her, we made sure she felt special, we spent the day doing some of her favorite things.  I made her a nice pancake breakfast, we covered the dining table with craft paper and painted on it, we went to the beach with her grammy, had dance parties with her nonna, and bestie, Lucas, played in her bounce house inside the house, and had so much fun with balloons.  I cooked her a pan roasted chicken lunch, with mashed potatoes, and had my close family over for homemade ice cream cake and presents.  It was a good day, a happy day, a day full of love and smiles and laughter... I don't necessarily believe in throwing big parties for each and every occasion, I think when it comes to celebrations it's more about the quality than the quantity. I'd say that Zoey had a top quality 2nd Birthday.

I think my camera lens was pretty filthy, so sorry these photos kind of lack in quality...

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Sunday Snippet Vol. 18

I think if god could speak to us he would tell us all to be lighter and brighter and more forgiving - to look for the good in everyone.  People are flawed, but life has a way of doing that to people, and instead of constantly reminding people of their flaws, why don't you try to understand them, and where they may come from.  I know that all people are not good, but I like to believe that most people are, and behaviors are learned, and why not lead by example? 

I am feeling so sick and tired of people and their complaints.  I like to think of myself as a very forgiving and understanding person. I don't like to make people feel bad for things they perceive they should feel bad about. Things happen, plans change, emergencies arise, moods develop, people forget, I tend to be accident prone myself... what can I do?  Being mad at someone over petty things is just not my style, and it only makes everyone involved unhappy.  So why not be understanding, brush it off, and move on with your life.  Maybe life has made me this way -  I have done a lot of feeling bad about things I have or haven't done.

33

Today I am 33! October 25 2016 

I genuinely don't think it sounds that bad... yes I am getting up there, but hey, I still feel young, I still know how to have fun, and enjoy being active - hey I wish I was MORE active actually, Maybe that could be one of my birthday wishes this year.  33 bring me more activity! Everyone that knows me, knows that I LOVE activities! I suck at relaxing, my husband will vouch for me, he really tries to make me sit down with him, and just about every time, I get antsy, and fidgety, and look for excuses to get up and do something.  My mind is always on GO.  Maybe that is something else I should wish for at 33 - 33 teach me to relax!

I am not sure how I feel about birthdays, they can be fun, and enjoyable, and full of love -- but being the center of attention is just NOT MY THING.  I love being around friends and family, there's nothing like that feeling you get after a nice gathering, but the anxiety I have before the actual series of events , gets me every darn time!  Do you know that my best friend, my husband, and family threw  me a really nice 25th surprise birthday (25 on the 25th) party once, and I walked in, walked away and cried because it wasn't what I wanted.... LOL.  Obviously, I had to compose myself, and get it together, and it ended up being one of my most memorable and favorite birthdays of all time.... I mean I also got to see Coldplay VIP - like 3 rows from the stage, next to a little catwalk that came out to the audience - and it was 2008, and I was a huge Coldplay fan! Chris Martin was my hearthrob!  Anyhow...

I am sitting at work right now, awaiting someone coming over to me to coax me into a conference room to sing friggen happy birthday to me, and it's taking every ounce of energy I have to not just RUN for it! LOL... my anxiety is high, and like they couldn't be any more obvious, and I am observant enough  to catch on to these things...

Sunday Snippet Vol. 17

TRENDY

I don't do things because they are trendy, nor do I avoid things that are trendy.  I like what I like, it is what it is, trendy or not.  I can appreciate things that are not quite "for me", but that doesn't mean I am going to do things just to "keep up with the joneses".  It's important to stay true to you, and not let popularity influence who you are. 

I, sometimes, like things that are "trendy" too, such as coffee, and craft beer, IPAs, food.... and so on... but I am not going to force my tastes upon you, or judge you for not knowing about coffee, or beer, or cooking.  We all should like what we like, and take interest in what we want to, right?  That's what keeps the world going.

Let it go!

Sometimes we all feel a little lost....right?
It's not easy to find your place in this world.  If I am being completely honest, a lot of the time I feel like I am not doing what I am supposed to be.  I'm doing what's comfortable, and it makes me uncomfortable.  Is this what I am supposed to be doing? 

I think I want more.

Is that a bad thing?   I have so many things to be grateful for, but I can't shake the feeling that I am missing something... I am not living up to my potential. 

I feel like I get held back easily, because I am always worried about others, and I get attached to people and things.  I am not good at letting go.. I think that's a big thing for me, letting go... I wouldn't say that I am bad with change, I think change excites me, but letting go, that's another story.