UPDATE 2013

It's fall!

 I love the seasons and embrace them all... I think winter is the only one that seems to last too long sometimes... anyway, it's been some time since I posted. I don't post here regularly, but enjoy writing an entry here and there.  Since my last entry - I have officially gotten married!!! YAY!! I am one lucky gal, marrying my best friend, soulmate, lover for 10 years now.  We had a beautiful wedding on September 7th with incredible weather and all of our closest friends and family.  We could not have asked for more.  It may have not been the wedding of "my dreams" but everyone was so happy, including ourselves, that I wouldn't have changed a thing.  The universe was on our sides.  Thank you!  

We honeymooned in Aruba, which was beyond incredible as well.  We picked the perfect resort for honeymooners and enjoyed every minute of our time there.  Aruba will always be special to us and we hope to go back there sometime during the lifetime we have ahead of us together. 

My computer at work decided to not let me type anymore on here probably due to some corporate internet nazziing as I like to call it... So here I am on the subway typing a little something on my blog - new experience for me :)!!  

So to continue my update here's a little bit about October 2013 me:

I'm turning 30 this Friday - woah!

My current celebrity crushes are:

Jason Segel

James Franco

Ryan Gosling 

What's on my mind lately:

Having a baby 

New York Attitudes

Career changes

Moving 

Shopping

Friendsgiving 

(I can expand on these in future posts)

I recently cut about 20 inches off of my hair. 

I've been feeling a little lost.

Today is my Swiss mountain dog's 3rd birthday.

I love my house.

Current favorite tv shows:

Big Bang Theory

How I met your Mother 

I've been exploring all the Apatow productions on Netflix such as "freaks and geeks" and "undeclared". --good shows with awesome casts and guest appearances that got cancelled way too early. 

Our wedding song was "Northern Wind" by City and Colour.

I've been kind of anti social networking but I enjoy instagramming 

I've been taking more pictures and collecting more cameras. 

That's all for now..

Distortion

I think because I am surrounded by shorter and more petite individuals, I sometimes start to feel like I am more petite than I actually am.... and may even behave more petite than I actually am, hopping around, being energetic, acting cutesy when I am in fact 5'7 and 150lbs.  I just wonder what it looks like from the outside.... Does anyone else ever experience something similar?

Women

Women should be more supportive of other women in the workplace. More often than not I find that women have a bad attitude towards other women. I even think it may be something in the female nature.  I can admit that there was a time in my life that I probably would have said that I hated girls....and I think that many woman go through a phase like that.  But some don't grow out of it.  I find it childish for a grown-ass woman to act in this manner. I've learned over the years that wasting energy on hating on people is just silly.  Once I realized this, and changed my attitude toward woman/girls I found myself to be a much happier person.  What good comes out of hating on others?

I just wish that more women would take a step back and reflect upon themselves. Next time you see a woman in the workplace smile and say hi to her, give her a nod, don't look her up and down or give her a stink eye.  There was a time when women weren't allowed in the workplace and woman are STILL treated like second class employees in many industries. If we don't support each other, who will?? I promise you that if you are warmer to others that you in turn will feel happier.  What do you have to lose? You can only gain friends or allies... Please be the change ladies, don't be the problem.

Change

I want to make a change. Simplify my life so that I am able to enjoy the things/people I truly love... How do I do this? I'm not positive yet but I am determined to make a change to spend the majority of my time doing something that actually matters to me and others. I know that I am capable of greatness when fueled by passion - I have drive. I am intelligent. I can make things happen.

I need to spend time figuring this out but I just want to put it out there to add fuel to my fire. I can't continue to live this conventional life that I am currently living. I want time for my family and friends. The people who matter most. Life is too short to spend the majority of your time working for the man and not feeling rewarded in any way but monetary compensation. I'm not built for that I have compassion, soul, a heart.....I can't imagine having a baby and feeling as though I must come back from maternity leave early to hold on to my job or that I must focus on work on my time off... How about being in the hospital for pretty extreme reasons and worrying about getting your blackberry to work bc you might miss something detrimental to your job. It's just not the way to live life. I don't think I could ever be happy living that way even with all the money in the world. Those are real life situations right there. People do that. If you don't believe it....I would probably be right there with you if I didn't witness it first hand.

Our country needs to take a step back and look at what really matters. Love others, cherish others, help others -- stop being so concerned with yourself and titles and $$$$$... Bc in the blink of an eye your life can be turned around and you can realize that you missed out on experiences, moments, memories, love - things that money can't buy but are worth more than anything money CAN buy.

Peace.

Rewarding people

Whatever happened to people being rewarded for their hard work, honesty, integrity, positive attitude, patience, teamwork, drive, abilities, etc. it seems now that if you demonstrate these characteristics and don't PUSH for a promotion - the big guys will continue to "get over on you" until you do. Is this the way you think the corporate world should operate?

It's not right or fair. If people show these characteristics they should be offered advancement and mentoring... Why must people have to be put in the sometimes awkward position to ask or demand things from higher ups? It's not right. Is it a greed thing? Shouldn't you want the people that work for you to feel like their hard work and initiatives are recognized ? I mean the people that work for you do directly reflect upon you. You should want to keep them happy and motivated to do more...

Who wants to feel like their efforts are unrecognized and unrewardable unless they go and ask for a reward. Who REALLY wants to be that person walking into their bosses office pointing out all the things they've done to deserve a promotion and having to ask for it??!!! I know I don't. I'd like for someone to say to me hey you've been doing a great job and we think you deserve a promotion and then actually follow through. I mean I've had quite a few empty promises made to me and its just very frustrating. They get me all pumped up but then no one follows through.. I have to keep on someone's ass to make sure that I get what I deserve. it's just not the way things should be and unfortunately it seems that things are in fact exactly this way.

I consider myself to be a genuinely good person and it really just sucks to feel taken advantage of by people bc they feel like they can. It's extremely discouraging and frankly sad.

2013

 I'm baaaaack...... I received this beautiful antique journal from my mother:



And have vowed to write in it every day for a year......
So far so good... And I am glad to be back into writing in a journal.... I've always had an outlet for writing in the past but then somehow I got completely off track with that.  I mean I carry around a notebook that I will write randomly in but its more for list making haha.. I love my lists!!! It seems to have been inspiring me to tap into my brain and thoughts more.  I have kept most of my journals from the past and once in a while I will go back and reminisce, and dream that one day someone will read about my life, or maybe even publish my journals... But that's just a crazy dream in the ultimate Christina La LA land...